Friday, July 22, 2016

2nd day of summer holiday

its the second day of summer holiday. guess what? i survived! my routine goes pretty well as of now. kids stay up pretty late up to 10pm. woke up around 9am (that's me :p) breakfast. then work out. yep. i hope i can maintain that every morning. then i spent good 2-3 hours with my kids (just discomnect myself from housework and phones/ipad etc), doing activities. then snack time. by this time it usually past noon so i turn on the tv, head off to the kitchen, close the door and quickly cook for lunch.

after lunch, i clean up the kitchen, myself and all. then izyan nap time. irfan continue with his writting excersice with me (have always to had bribe him with chocolate/juice/lollipop.... or if its not working, ipad is my last solution).  by the time we finish all these, its around 4-ish. at this point, kids are on their own. sometimes i let the kids play outside or i bring them to nearest playground for an hour or so. dinner by 7pm and once the kids showered after that, i let them play on their own or watch tv while i surf the net/read/housework/etc --- so called me time, till their bedtime.

that's my whole life now. in two paragraph. literally.

i tried to spent as much time with my children. i went to so many talks/course or events related to child development and early learning. and i have learnt so much through this. i find my approach is so different to when im a working mum, because i did not learn about it and maybe dont have opportunity to learn about it. it such a shame because i almost jeorpadize my child's development. and it did a bit. but i also learn, nobody is a perfect parent. nor did my parent. they made mistake too. and so do i. i think most of all is the effort that counts. you spent time to go to speech theraphy, you took leave to attend to your sick child, you open up to new ideas, suggestion, approach. dont feel bad about being a bad parent unless you have not made an effort to make it better. and not neccessarily have to be a stay-at-home-mom to solve it all.

my friends around me be it a stay-at-home or a working mom, are always a great example to me. their efforts made me feels to improve more of myself of being a mother. and just because another mother made such an effort, you dont have to feel any less. do it,too. or do it, even better than her.

 so, having used to be working mom and now stay-at-home-mom, im not saying i understand both worlds just because ive been in both. parenting is individual. all im saying, as a mother, efforts count. like when on mothers day, you expect a fancy breakfast with a buoquet of flower but all you got is wish from your kids and husband. then you will say (you WILL say kan?) takpe, its the thought that counts. padahallllllll....................

ok kiding.

mothers oh mothers.

:)

Cold day in july

I've been busy that i almost forget that i have a blog. Ramadhan gone with lots of good memories and learning. Our eid celebrations are not bad, one after another open houses. Alhamdulillah, 3 years living here, my ramadhan and syawal celebration didnt feel any much different from home except that my families are not around.

Summer break starts next week. I've made some plans for the kids during the holidays so that we always look forward to it. Staying with two toddlers at home means I have to make them AND myself occupied, making sure we have different activities everyday, and try to go out every 2-3 days. It seems a lot to juggle but hopefully all goes well.

I never thought it will be a teary moment at Irfan's end of day nursery celebration. The kids perform few song which the last song touched me. i wiped my tears and apparently some other mothers felt the same. oh how time flies. irfan is so lucky to have this kind of opportunity. On the very last day, myself and Irfan made an effort to make cards and wrap presents for the teacher. When each and every teachers received their present, they each read and look through thr cards and said 'did you made the cards irfan? oh what a lovely writting there' (although it took me hours to make him write and draw on the cards -_-" ) but u know such praises made it all worth my time doing it with Irfan.

cold july will end soon. season comes. season goes.